Twenty years later, Kevin Federline has issued an apology to ex-fiancé Shar Jackson, per U.S Weekly.
Federline, 47, has a new memoir, You Thought You Knew, set to be released Oct 21, where he discusses his regret on cheating on Jackson, 49, with Britney Spears in 2004.
In a raw chapter, Federline shares how he “handled the breakup with Shar poorly.” Adding, “I wasn’t honest or direct.”
Federline admits that he lied to Jackson by telling her he had “booked a commercial shooting overseas” when he was actually joining Spears, 43, in Europe for her Onyx Hotel Tour.
Looking back in retrospect, the actor, now sees the error in his behavior towards then fiancé.
“I knew [the truth] would hurt her, and I didn’t want that,” he explains. “If I could go back in time, I’d handle that whole thing differently. But life doesn’t work like that. We f*** up and we learn.”
Eventually, Federline called Jackson to come clean, telling her that he had been secretly hooking up with Spears and was starting to fall in love with the pop star.
“I could hear the heartbreak in her voice, and the pain it caused,” he remembers. “She was angry. But under the anger was something deeper, a sadness I couldn’t undo.”
Jackson and Federline share two children. She welcomed daughter Kori in 2002, followed by son Kaleb in 2004.
When Jackson and Federline split during her pregnancy with Kaleb, he and Britney Spears welcomed son Sean Preston Federline in 2005, followed by Jayden James Federline in 2006.
In an exclusive interview with Us Weekly on October 15, Federline revealed that things between him and Jackson are more than cordial now—they’re solid.
“Me and Shar are good. We’re great,” he said. “That happened so long ago, and, you know, I’ve apologized to her, and all of that stuff has taken place a long time ago. I just felt that it was an important piece to put in the book.”
He added that after 20 years, there is no lingering bad blood with either of the women who helped shape his journey.
“I have nothing but respect for her. The same as Britney,” he told Us. “There’s no ill will toward anybody in this situation. Everything that I’ve done and am doing is all out of love and out of respect for our families and our children. Britney and Shar both gave me two of the greatest — or four, I should say — pieces of my life.”